The Love of a Father.
What even is that? So many scriptures point to the Love that he has for us and many of us never really know our fathers so when we go to God as our father we stand there and draw a comparison blank or in a worst case have a negative comparison to contend with. I spent just under 3 hours this morning talking to my Father and it wasn’t like i knew him really well but he knew me really well and as i started talking to him not knowing what to say really, i started praying for people in general and then occasionally through praying for people i would get a sense of Gods love and nature by how he was filling my heart with love for the people i was praying for. He has done that before in my life. Caused me to experience a glimpse of what a fathers love feels like as i opened my heart to love someone else. Sometimes a daughter or a fiend. t’s not like i cant feel him without doing that but my mind isn’t very understanding. I just end up blubbering a lot and don’t really have words or it. Anyway if your reading this just know you are loved dearly but you may never really receive that deep revelation unless you spend time with God and begin to allow him to give you that as you pray for the needs of the people you know. I pray for the loneliness of people i know and as i do that i sense my own loneliness and cry through that as god ministers to me. or i pray for the couple who have recently split up and i get the overwhelming sense of Gods hurt over it and his love and desire for them to return to each other. My understanding of his character and his love grows with every prayer. I ask for an inheritance because God as my father promised me one as i have been left nothing. But i remember that inheritances come after a parent dies. i tell god that since hi will never die can i have mine now. My family needs a home rather than living in a house truck, which although was fine for the most part, it’s no longer suitable for two teenage daughters and a ten year old. As i’m praying i sense that he is hearing me. I tel him about my unbelief and how hard it is sometimes to believe that his plans for me are for good or that i’m having trouble with trusting him.
But mostly i hear his heart in my prayers for others as these prayers don’t come from me but it’s god praying through me and my emotions are growing in an understanding of how God feels. It’s important to understand how God feels. Probably more than intellectual knowledge of him. It’s part of loving him with all our heart. This to me is Gods grace. His showing me that he loves us so much that he was willing to die for me. It’s amazing to me that he can express an individualized connection with each human being on earth as though you were the only one he loved. to think that while i was still sinning and hating God that he had these kinds of feelings towards me. i realized perhaps for the first time that we are all his children but we are estranged from him and partly because of who he is and partly because of the things we do and think we can never get close enough to understand what that’s like. to love someone who hates you and not being able to come near because your Holy and cannot dwell with sin. So to find a solution to both problems came in the death and resurrection of Jesus to bring us together again so God could forgive our sins because Jesus has forever atoned for them and God can now fully be with us by his spirit. Now through Jesus we can go to our Father anytime we want.
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